Hard Day

Each day gets harder and harder. I am becoming depressed. We tried taking the girls to the park today,but I felt so bad that I just sat there. Story of my life:( I am such a waste of space. I am worthless. I am a horrible mother, they won't even want to be a part of me eventually. This stupid illness has ruined my life. I don't think it would really matter if anything did happen during surgery, all I am is a burden to my family. Those I love the most.